On Easter Sunday, we are
confronted by what makes faith possible. But we
are also confronted by what faith makes possible.
The former – the strange but
irrepressibly real life and death of Jesus Christ, the 1st century Palestinian “godman” – is the
appropriate focus of liturgical participation and celebration on Easter Sunday.
For Christians worship a God
who has conquered death – not
in some convoluted pantomime that God acted out on this earthly stage in a
costume of flesh, but in a
living Person. So we say that he has “conquered death,” and do not mean he
has plucked Jesus away from the gobbling worms, saying, like Kronk’s devil of The Emperor’s New Groove,
“Yeah, but look what I can do”; rather, we mean he has emerged from the grave himself, and in such a way and
in such a context that the meaning of this action is far, far more than a
crude exhibition of divine omnipotence. Christ’s resurrection means life for those who participate in it,
believe it: “whoever lives by believing in me will never die” (Jn. 11:26).
It is here that we modern minds
get hung up. Yet, of course, it is precisely in this moment that the meaning of
the resurrection is. The
resurrection of Jesus makes
faith possible, but – and without this “but” we must say “so what?” – this
truth must not wander far from its twin, born only seconds later and clinging
to its older brother’s heel: faith in the resurrection makes new life possible.
It is by no means an unfortunate
reality that much has been made of uncertainty.
A healthy dose of uncertainty is the spice of thought, and as the right amount
of spice can make a whole pot of soup come to life, so too can uncertainty
infuse that humility into thinking which seems to me the very wisdom behind any particular wisdom. Indeed, many great
philosophers have struggled their whole lives after perfect and consummate
doubt.
But it is true that doubt can
become an idol, a personal god, a fundamental commitment whereby skepticism
becomes absolute, rejecting in advance the possibility of a suspension of doubt
for the sake of venturing into a hypothesis, let alone the possibility of
actually knowing. In such
habits of thought we see the perversity that results when doubt is never
allowed to turn towards itself, when skepticism is never permitted to be
skeptical of itself.
It is such well-buffered minds
that cannot quite come to grips with this uncanny younger twin of truth, faith, and not just in terms of
accounting for its presence – for such buffered minds find it hard to admit
that in fact more can be done
with faith than with doubt.
But is not this fact part of the whole story of
the resurrection, part of what the resurrection reveals and does?
The reality of the resurrection is not containable simply in its historical
factuality, its small-t “truth”: its meaning, its import, is so abundant that
it wells up from truth and spills over into faith – and through faith enacts
itself, building up the Church, the members of Christ’s body, resurrecting them into the new life of the kingdom.
Taking my share of humanities
courses in university, I have naturally had cursory access to some of the
so-called sophisticated spheres of intellectual life. Taking this activity
seriously – though, despite the consequences I do not mean that at the time it
would have been better not to have taken it seriously – I have necessarily
passed through some fairly extreme periods of questioning. There have been a
few moments of my life in which I have, in mind and soul, been so confused
that, like a dog vengefully biting at the fleeting tailcoat of meaning, I would
become (there is no other way of putting it) angry at reality herself.
Since then, I have been struck
more and more by the mysterious grace present in the leap of faith which,
however incomprehensible it is in itself, makes that act of submission in
belief so intriguingly sensible.
Of course, this is never a blind leap – for a whole host of witnesses
and a God who has proved His faithfulness in history gives reason and
encouragement to the movement even before it is made, however a poor
interpretation of Kierkegaard might have it. Nonetheless it is a leap, a moment where you leave
the ground – to land on it anew, “heavier by the weight of where” you “have
been,” as Rilke put it.
It is always gratifying to find
some form and content to hazy musings of the past. Last summer, as I struggled
against some unfair biases against certain expressions of Christian faith which
we might call more “evangelical,” I was struck one Sunday by the incredible
liberating consequences of believing something. I came home and wrote:
Undoubtedly, belief makes possible certain things that un-belief
cannot yield to a person. Belief renders real psychological “options” to the
believer. For example, belief in a God of justice allows/provokes a person to
take their burden of guilt seriously, to look it in the ugly mug, and even to
relive themselves of it. Belief in God allows a person to develop into a saint,
if they let themselves. Saints are, after all, our best apologetics, our best
proof of God’s existence. I believe this is the reason I am beginning to have
trouble with theologies like John Caputo’s, or fundamentally uncommitted and
existentialized theologies as such. Such a theology can never go far enough,
for it never lets itself get to the point where it can make a true
psychological difference on the individual. Caputo’s
radical theology cannot make a saint. I am beginning to think more,
therefore, about that moment of belief, and about what belief is – for the
puzzling and alarming fact is, unless a person believes, they cannot change. If
they are stuck trying to believe, they never get to the
point where they can grow. If they are stuck doubting, they prevent themselves
from growing. For this reason, a person’s “spiritual journey” (i.e. their life) cannot be simply about
“whether they believe or not.”
Only now, after a year’s worth of
thought, conversation, and reading, do I think I can attempt to bring to light
some of the things that I was only feeling at here with my all-too-short
theological antennae.
In the Easter narrative it really
all comes to a crux, for belief, in fact the entire Christian faith, here
stands or falls with the resurrection: “if Christ be not risen, then is our
preaching vain, and your faith is also vain” (1 Cor. 15:14).
Why is this? Because it is in the resurrection that all things are made new, and it
is our faith in the historical and present reality of the resurrection that
allows us to participate in this “new creation.” As Rowan Williams, in his book Resurrection, sums up the
interconnection between these factors, “it is a story which makes possible the
comprehensive act of trust without which growth is impossible”
(49).
And so, on the flip side from
“without the resurrection, no belief,” we can also say (with qualification to
follow) “without belief, no resurrection” – that is, without belief our
participation in this new creation is not active. This means that unless we
accept the grace offered to us in this strange and frankly unbelievable action
of God (and this acceptance, for us moderns, simply cannot help involving some
form of intellection) we will be unable to fully participate in this new
creation. Barth puts the basic insight that I wish to articulate so forcefully
that the best thing to do is to quote it at length.
The third day a new life of Jesus begins; but at the same time
on the third day there begins a new Aeon,
a new shape of the world, after the old world has been completely done away and
settled in the death of Jesus Christ… The game is won, even though the player
can still play a few further moves. Actually he is already mated… It is in this
interim space that we are living: the old is past, behold it has all become
new. The Easter message tells us that our enemies, sin, the curse and death,
are beaten. Ultimately they can no longer start mischief. They still behave as
though the game were not decided, the battle not fought; we must still reckon
with them, but fundamentally we must cease to fear them any more. (Dogmatics
in Outline 123)
Albert Camus said he could not
abide Christianity because it dictated the end before it came. In this way,
according to Camus, it in fact lost the struggle of the existing individual to
the victory of the Whole. Camus’ existential concerns led him to narrow in on
the moment to moment of accessible history in a profound way – and who
could argue otherwise of The
Plague than that it puts
forward one of the most profound ethical paradigms in history? – in order
to purify his vision of eschatological speculations and ultimate resolutions,
those pernicious distractions from the suffering of actual people in the hic et nunc and the problem they pose in the hic et nunc.
But Camus might just have joined
the Church if his life had not been truncated by that tragic car accident in
1960, and he might have done this without giving up his existential
convictions. For, in fact, the hope contained in the Easter event only bolsters
the immediacy and significance of Camus’ existential concern. In Barth’s
bare-bones analysis of the meaning of the resurrection we see what hope makes possible.
If the Christian hope was some
pie in the sky fantasy or naïve escapism, it would rightly fall against Camus’
criticism. But, in fact, the Christian hope is resurrectional hope, that is, it is always for the sake of the here and now – for must not
resurrection by definition take place in time and space? Indeed, this hope is
the heart of a Christian’s responsibility, for it pumps the fiery blood that
extends into our limbs for the good work of God. It releases us from any form
of ultimate fear, and does
this precisely so that we may live resurrection lives, lives
markedly different than the world at large, lives characterized by selfless
love in resurrectional freedom.
This Christian hope is not a hopeful illusion, the
kind of thing that trembling souls fashion for themselves to snuggle up against
in hard times. This is the kind of hope that yells at you when things are going poorly –
not as some inane cheerleader singing platitudinous ditties about how “the game
is won,” but rather as a hard-ass parent on the sidelines who in such moments
of difficulty and confusion, when it looks as though the game is lost, becomes
sober and realistic, reminding of you of your beginning and end, your origin
and purpose, and in this way offering encouragement.
Now, grasping the relation
between the real happening of the resurrection and our faith, we
can begin to say something really remarkable. Williams, again in his book Resurrection, articulates a
participatory theology wherein our trust in God is part of God’s act in us,
which, being a necessary stage or element in the general process of new
creation on earth, is itself a share in that new creation: “To believe in the
risen Jesus is to trust that the generative power of God is active in the human
world; that it can be experienced as transformation and recreation and empowerment
in the present; and that its availability and relevance extends to every human
situation” (49). In this trust and only in this trust can we begin to act – as
Christians, with hope, with our reality oriented and our big picture “taken
care of.” This is why our belief in the resurrection is in fact a part of the resurrection. This is why we can
say that this belief is a
participation in the transformative work of Christ in our midst.
All I wish to convey, and all I
am struggling to understand and commit to, is simple, really: we cannot live
the resurrection life without actually believing in the resurrection. It is not my
intention in saying this to persuade anyone not convinced to “simply believe” –
that is not the kind of belief needed, in any case. Nor do I mean this
reflection as some kind of post-game yell-down: “come on, people, we need to
believe more!” That is equally obtuse.
I am just trying to see clearly
what exactly is going on in the Christian faith which stakes so much on the
resurrection. This Christian faith is complicated, painful, paradoxical, filled
with 2000 years of stupid mistakes, accumulated insights, spiritual practices,
ethical atrocities, and etc. after etc. But again and again in it we find
the simple question: “how are we to act decisively – which is freedom – if we are indecisive about our
faith?”
This is why faith is so much more
than dreaming, than a lozenge for anxiety. This is why faith is a gift (i.e. something more than just
“free,” but something worth something that happens to be free), for there are real consequences to faith. It has fruit which are
directly experienced and determinative in history. In a philosophical climate
where sophisticated uncertainty (whether it be Rortian “irony” or Heideggarian
“authenticity” or some other newfangled take on the ambiguity of reality) is
apparently prized as the ideal disposition, where the dark side of faith is
emphasized more than its far brighter side, where doubt seems to constitute the
“examined” life, we have much to gain by beginning to perceive that there is
indeed something special and advantageous about believing. What one can do, if
one is able to presuppose!
And here, as a kind of endnote,
or icing on the cake, we may discern an implicit apologetics contained within
faith itself. Is not freedom from ultimate fear some indication of the worth,
if not truth, of faith – the same way that the condensation on the inside of a
windowpane in winter is an indirect indication that there must be warmth in the
house? There is something worth considering about this faith, for it is a faith
that makes life more, not less, accessible. As Barth writes, “The Christian
hope does not lead us away from this life; it is rather the uncovering of the
truth in which God sees our life… The man who believes that is already
beginning here and now to live the complete life” (154-55). To take up the
analogy of the house in winter again: is the cold any more revealing of our
nature than warmth? Cannot we live better,
in fact, if we come in from the cold?
It hardly needs to be said that
we ought not to, then, believe things indiscriminately for the sake of the
“benefits of confidence.” But we cannot neglect to see, either, the positive
consequences of a true faith, realities which in some sense constitute the best
apologetic for faith. Despite the fact that these fruit do not provide
satisfactory historical/philosophical/aesthetic defenses – these can and should
be sought elsewhere – they embody their own defense.
This is why we ought not to
dismiss certainty out of hand, and even consider the possibility, that the
gospel provides us not just with a compelling object of belief (the
resurrection) but the compelling possibility of allowing that belief to
transform our existence – but only if we unflinchingly stake our lives on this
reality, unabashedly believing in the power of God to restore us and complete
us and in the love of God to preserve and ensure the future of our story.
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